I should have listened to music instead.

Or written

Sang, read a book anything else but react.

How do you know when to react or not? Apparently there is a way the world expects you to be. You are to live tailored to suit this pre-designed coat and there is barely room for breathing or squirming. Just do as expected or there are problems you end up having to apologize for eventually.

Do you have a right to determine if you want the coat or not? Of course yes.

But unfortunately you can’t always afford their reactions to your choosing not to wear it. You could end up ostracized, damned by the very ones you love and swear they love you too.