If Only

It’s funny… also not funny how much difference a few days make. You have something on your mind you really want to do or say but you don’t because you think it’s too soon. It’s stupid, it’s unnecessary, or you’re just not brave enough. And so you delay… one day, two, and three suddenly you are okay with taking the first step. You’ve played it out so many times in your mind it’s flawless. You set your plan in action. You make a move and hold your breath for a positive answer.

 It comes… but it’s not positive. It’s said softly… but it hurts. It’s what you expected in the first place… but it shocks you.

What makes it worse is when you are told if you had come earlier it might have been positive. If you hadn’t been so scared, if you hadn’t waited so long, if you had only been spontaneous…

If only, if only…

They all come and go, And try to come again and go.

ME: The annoying chain of get attached, get hurt, get attached get hurt again, is the main reason I’m hostile to new relationships. It seems a bitter end is always inevitable and promises that matter are never actually kept. Why start it when you know the end already? I’d rather just avoid disaster.



ME AGAIN: How do you know until you try? If the last hurt you, it doesn’t guarantee the next would hurt you. Don’t punish your next for the mistakes of your past. Be careful however and don’t be quick to trust or commit, but keep this in mind; its better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all.


YOU SEE MY PROBLEM?

It’s funny… also not funny how much difference a few days make. You have something on your mind you really want to do or say but you don’t because you think it’s too soon. It’s stupid, it’s unnecessary, or you’re just not brave enough. And so you delay… one day, two, three and suddenly you are okay with taking the first step. You’ve played it out so many times in your mind it’s flawless. You set your plan in action. You make a move and hold your breath for a positive answer.

It comes… but it’s not positive. It’s said softly… but it hurts. It’s what you expected in the first place… but it shocks you.

What makes it worse is when you are told if you had come earlier it might have been positive. If you hadn’t been so scared, if you hadn’t waited so long, if you had only been spontaneous…

 If only, if only…

Us Seers

I think the problem with girls is we see too far into the future. We create scenarios, some possible and some ridiculously absurd and basically plan out the future. Then things do not go according to plan and we hate the person or reason behind this. A girl meets a guy and plans out their perfectly good future and its all blue skies from here. Or so she thinks. But the guy is merely interested in the here and now. He has no clue or book of directions on how to behave to fulfill said girl’s fantasy. This is why the girl gets mad every time, and the guy remains confused because he has no idea what he is doing wrong

I'm looking forward to dreaming §
I feel so excited my mind is screaming §
I'd bid all goodnight and get into bed §
my fantasies would commence before I rest my head § 
I'd pick up from where I left off earlier today §
with a smile on my face, Calmly i lay §
why can't these dreams ever come true?? §
Why do i go to sleep high and live the day blue? §
I wouldn't stop dreaming though §
whether they'd come true or not, this i don't know §
but if such joy can be derived from this experience §
I'd rather dream big, be hopeful and accept the consequence § 
I'm looking forward to dreaming §I feel so excited my mind is screaming §
I'd bid all goodnight and get into bed §
my fantasies would commence before I rest my head § 
I'd pick up from where I left off earlier today §
with a smile on my face, Calmly i lay...◆

It's a new year and im glad
Im grateful, excited and not a bit sad.
I told myself on the last day,
 " you're entering a new year okay?
subtract your regrets, bad memories and hurt, 
multiply your happiness, happy thoughts and worth, 
add positive thinking, hope and joy, 
pray more, love wisely and laugh wholeheartedly. 
Dance if you want, say what you think and live freely. 
Step out of the shackles and self inflicted inhibitions, 
Know youself and stop being a mass of contradictions.  
Time to stop imagining and start doing, 
it'll be hard sometimes but keep going. 
Surround yourself with people that make you happy, 
make people smile even though your day might be crappy. 
Learn to see through fake friends who would never last long, 
who would play and end just like a 4 minutes song. 
Look out for love if you must somehow, 
it's not as great as you think you know that now. 
Bare in mind people would come and go, 
stop being surprised when true colours show.
Expect little- get disappointed less.
Expect nothing, no disappointment- no mess. 
Live in service to God and others, 
treat all like sisters and brothers.

◆ You only get one life, live life before it leaves you. Dream big, no one can stop you. Live your dreams too it's actually in your power! Take that first little step and all others after, exhibit a cheerful demeanor as you go. Fight all battles with a smile, works like a charm. Say 'please', 'thank you', 'God bless you, ' have some of mine', 'you're welcome', and 'you look great' more often. When you're sad, read this post and remember your promise to be glad... Never lie to someone that trusts you. Never trust someone that lied to you. Most importantly,  stop looking for happiness in the same place you lost it...◆ Happy New Year everyone